My son is the sweetest person you’d ever want to meet. Oh my, he loves God and enjoys life! He makes straight A’s and readily says yes ma’am when a request is made of him, except to be neat and clean his room 😩. But if he’s so awesome why am I so readily irritated by him?
It must be something within me. How can this gentle guy erupt such impatience and irritability in me? I can only conclude that the bible rings true that out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks (Luke 6:45). These feelings can only be something that is already embedded in my heart. But how does my heart become clouded with anger? How is it that I could miss these opportunities to enjoy life with a part of me?
I suppose its because I am so busy. Since his todd years I have been juggling multiple jobs and school. It seems as though I’m always striving towards something else. And as I’m striving, I am digging a deeper hole to be filled with more busyness. My busyness is often times non productive. The kids go off and do their thing….I go off to do mine…hubby does his and when we reconvene together the adults want to isolate to unwind and the kids want to engage in quality time. We are so busy striving that we push our kids away when they are just trying to live. There are attempts to balance each aspect of the day and in turn I just end up feeling unappreciated. But did the children ask me to be busy, to work the profession I work, to create the need to work more? Did God instruct me to do these things? Or is this some need and vision I have created for myself? Do I even have time to stop and inquire of the Lord if these are things according to his plan?
How can I cease to be busy and learn to be still? This appears to be the answer for everything but the first and obvious would be to spend time with the Lord.
Use your time appropriately: While at work, work. While at home serve and enjoy your family. Make time to rest. Avoid the multi task dance where nothing gets done. We spend countless hours recounting in our mind all the things “we need to do”, doing things we think “need to be done”, and making plans to “commit to more”. What are we actually getting done? And if we are spending all this time thinking and planning, why isn’t anything getting “done”?
Life is such a competition now. We lack contentment in the privilege of living. Ahh! What glory in being able to wake up and breathe one more breath. What joy in seeing the faces of our family and neighbors one more day. The Lord has been so good to give us just one more….. If we could focus on the glory of ‘now’, everything would fall into it’s place.
Philippians 4:12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.